Crossfeed with another of my blogs

I've been visiting online with other Squalor Survivors and I am led to ask and answer some questions of myself which arise from working on another of my blogs, PDQ. That blog is about my quest for 'Personal Development'. I've a link there to a site that is intended to help one deal with feeling overwhelmed by stuff. These particular questions seem very pertinent to my relationship with my squalor.


* Are the goals that I have set for myself clearly defined?

I regularly don't do this. The goals I set are frequently woolly or unrealistic, especially in regard to my Squalor or my eating habits.


* Am I mismanaging my time?

I prevarocate. I distract myself. I avoid. I spend more time thinking about what I should do and plan to do than I spend actually doing it.


* Am I spending time on unimportant things?

Frequently I am. I blog, or I facebook, or I do 'nice' things instead of unpleasant or challenging things.

So part of my Quest has to be changing without criticising myself. You see, I like wasting time on that activity especially.

Squalid but not proud

The 'fresh ingredients' thing hasn't worked out yet. I did, though, clear my bathroom window ledge and have thus far maintained it.

I realised recently that my home has been in this sorry state for more than six months. I wanted a Christmas tree last year, but didn't manage to make the space for it. The baubles I bought to encourage me have sat in my lounge since then, a sad but shiny addition to the flotsam and jetsam of my life.

*sighs*

Squalor Survivors

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Depression and Endangerment

I'm very down at present. I can barely move around my home at the current time. Every step is dangerous as things lie on top of each other and slip and slide as I stand on them. I keep making 'pathways', but they clog up with crap almost as fast as I make them.

One good thing recently though is that I cleaned both my cooker hob and my sink. Now if I can only clear a worktop as well I might actually be safe to cook something. To that end, I've bought fresh ingredients twice now, but still haven't made the planned meal. The lights in my kitchen are dead and I can't get a ladder into the room to fix them safely, so that is another reason it's a treacherous room right now.

Bin bags

I currently have 14 bin bags sat on my drive. I'm waiting for a friend to come and take them to the tip for me. Inside my home are three more bags. I haven't put themn out yet. MJy neighbour was complaining about the bags I've already put out.

Things are really bad in my home at present. I am knee-deep in flotsam and jetsam and can barely get through my front door. Walking is difficult and dangerous, as is attempting to climb the stairs or to cook.

I'm pretty low today about everything.